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For useful context my stutter is moderate to severe. I'll also never get a sentence without multiple blocks, and often signficant blocks. Although total blocks are fairly rare. 1. My stutter has remained much the same, I've had it as long as I can remember. But how I deal with it has changed, slightly. I used to look away from people when blocking, now I close my eyes but try and look at them still, for example. I confront the blocks less often, preferring to restart words or sentences instead. 2. I personally was never really bullied. I can remember only one time a kid even said a mean remark about it and I just didn't care. Teachers were generally always supported, some would have a quick chat after the first day of class about what they could do to support me, others just treated me like a normal kid, although I'm sure they called on me less than other kids (despite the fact that I was the bright one that would always know). 3. I could unpack this one for days. But in brief I hate it, I feel it prevents me from being who I am and connecting with people in entirely the normal way. But I've also accepted it and accepted that it isn't stopping me completely. 4. See above really. Relationships (platonic and romantic) are pretty much the entire driving factor behind my opinion of my stutter. 5. I'm in the UK, no one treats me any differently. People just politely ignore it. Occasionally someone will ask how they can help, normally just before we part ways after meeting. I specify UK because my experience with foreigners (most notably Americans) has been slightly different. Americans have *always* commented on it in some way. Whether that's "thats so cool, my uncle's friend's sister stutters too!" kinda thing or "man you really can't talk at all" type thing. Just a cultural difference about how 'forward' you can be with people I guess. 6. The main thing that sticks out to me is it's just because of stress. In fact when I'm at my calmest and most relaxed can be the worst it gets. (Because I don't feel the need to use any techniques). 7. The barrier to communication. In my head sentences are exciting, they flow well, I vary my tone and timing to convey exciting and entertaining nuances. But when I come to speak I just *can't*, physically can't. Sentences are grinding, disjointed, breathless. It makes people uncomfortable to listen to and it's clear they don't always understand (but are too polite to ask again). I feel like I can't express who I am, and I'm pushed to the sidelines of conversations. 8. My stutter definitely adds to a more general social anxiety that definitely has stopped me. Although I really try not to avoid stuff solely because of my stutter. 9. Every time I hear this question I think "oh yeah I really stutter badly on this sound sometimes, and that one, and that one... basically all of them". It's like every sound has a unqiue difficulty of stuttering, but no sound is reliably difficult/easy. So yes and no I guess. 10. Speech therapy has been a bit hit or miss for me. The tip that's helped most is to step back and take a breath if I'm beginning to stutter. Stuttering can set off a feedback spiral as I get frustrated, flustered, and anxious that makes everything worse. Stepping back to break the cycle can really help getting back to speech. 11. Depends how bad. A minor stutter is just like a normal part of speaking. Then it builds to being a bit frustrating and annoying. Then it builds to really frustrating, breathless, shameful. After a really bad stutter I'm left sat there out of breath and just white hot with embaressment and shame. 12. I've never experienced that but would be a little suspicious. To me, no part of this is cute. 13. The stereotypes of stupidity and/or stress are annoying. Also the stereotype of "fixability" is annoying as well. A good pep talk and I'll be cured. Obviously the above is just my experience, many people experience a stutter differently, based on the specific nature of their dtutter and the environment around them. Hope this helps though, and feel free to ask more.