Read everything you typed in its entirety. You're right you aren't alone! Having "cookie cutter" phrases you say with the words you can say right can feel so isolating, because you really aren't saying what you feel. Applying for your first big job is tough! Some place will accept you. You aren't alone in that absolute terror of applying for a job. It is rough, and the thought of rejection based on something you can't control feels so intense! You aren't alone here! Edit: Typos! :)