Okay you have two lìves: on and off the clock. On the clock, any decent employer will make adjustments for you. They want your skills beyond speech. We work because we have to. Off the clock, you have full control to make your own life suit you. You find and keep people around you that are supportive, and you do the things that bring you the most happiness. Living with a stutter is entirely about adjusting. You don't have to live the same cookie cut lifestyle as non-stuttering people and I think you're putting a ton of pressure on yourself to do that. Take little steps toward finding your own flow and you'll find yourself on a better track.