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My stuttering life I don't know how to start. I wasn't planning to write this, and especially not on Reddit, but here we are. I can start by introducing myself: I am Bastian. A 15-year-old boy from Norway, currently attending 10th grade. I love to play football, I love programming, and I love to talk. The problem is that I stutter. I don't know whether I'm a light, moderate or severe stutterer, but either way, it's hard. ​ How did my stammer occur? I don't know. I once went to "speech therapy" in 5th grade, but it was questionable. It was me, a speech therapist, and two more students. It was only two or three times, though. Fast forward to 7th grade, and I remember we had our first oral presentation. It was in English, and we were to talk about an English speaking country. I and my partner picked Australia. I believe the presentation went fine, but I remember when practising what I was going to say, I felt some kind of stress. I think this was the first-ever moment that stuttering was "on my mind". But, I was twelve, and life continued. ​ Half a year later, and I now attended 8th grade. Comparing to 7th grade, it was now a little more oral presentations, not a lot, but something. I remember that I did them all, and I think it went fine. But I can't remember how I felt about my stuttering, and if it really affected me. ​ Fast forward to 9th grade, and it was this year that my stuttering problem really became "an issue". The thought of saying anything out loud was was now a fear, and I started being quiet in every lecture/class. I couldn't manage to do oral presentations anymore, and luckily for me, I was allowed to record them instead. Sadly, my stutter had taking control of me. ​ Now attending 10th grade. I can't do oral presentations, and I stay quiet in class. My teacher has begun challenging me to speak up more, and that's fine. For the most part. It really depends on what the question or discussion is. If it is a reflective question, sure, because then I can talk freely. A more specific question, with either a right or wrong answer, is tougher. But that's not what I was going to write about here. ​ The most challenging part is the oral exam. It's at the end of the school year, around May. It's stressing me out, but I've come to realize that I can do it. I can talk 20-25 minutes, presenting a theme, no matter if I stutter. ​ What I can't handle is all the stress. All the stress I feel every day. Simple tasks like borrowing a book on the library, or introduce myself to others are hard. The simple "Hi, I'm Bastian" is hard as fuck, because of the B at the start of my name. I hate it. It's the little things that tear me up inside. ​ I hope you liked reading a little bit about my stuttering life. There is a lot more to it, obviously, but it would take me a lot more writing to get it all down on paper. **Either way, if anyone has something they want to say, please comment below. I just wanna hear how you guys deal with your stutter.**