If you want to be in a forest with nature, then do so. Be a nature photographer, sell your photos online, print the photos on t-shirts, mugs, and sell them on Etsy or other online sites that deal with independent artists/creative types. There are hundreds of careers that don't require speech at all. You can contact disability centers, speech therapists, and other governmental, private, and non-profit services to find those jobs and get help in obtaining one. if your goal is to work, then go work. If your goal is to work only, if and when, you no longer stutter, then tighten your belt because you will be very hungry. Get to work. It is not your responsibility to be a person who doesn't stutter. It is your responsibility to be a useful person that provides for himself and those who depend on him -- with or without a stutter.