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Hopeless Hello, so I had made a post a couple days ago but I feel that it is important for me to just vent on how I feel. This may come out as negative or hopeless but this is the state I am in. I have tried everything to better my speech. Whether that be speech therapy, meditations before a speaking event like a presentation, drinking electrolytes and I feel like my speech is just getting worse. When I’m with friends or family there are just some minor blocks. But over the past week I had 3 presentations that collectively I did awful in. The last one being getting stuck on every single word. And although I have gotten stuck on words in the past, it hasn’t been to this extent. My mental health is also at an all time worse because of this. I know that people say that you should be optimistic and the more you think about it the worse it gets kinda advice, I can’t help but do exactly the opposite of those things. I feel like I’m just stuck in life now. Everything revolves around this. My friends, family interactions, relationships in the future, jobs, everything. And I just feel paralyzed by this issue. I fee humiliated in front of my friends and peers. It’s like they are mocking me. And since I am a great student who is hardworking, this is my worst nightmare. This is not to put anyone else struggling with their speech in a negative light. But for me this is where I’m at.