We have a speech disability, something else has to adjust. What has to adjust is our own attitude towards ourselves, and society needs to adjust to include us. Socialization is not a sport it’s a human need, we are humans we need it. It’s completely valid to be worried about traumatizing yourself, so it sounds like you need to take baby steps rather than throwing yourself into the deep end. What do you already enjoy doing that can include other people? Are you a gamer? Could you find a community online that is not stutter related? Is there something at your local recreation centre that you could join? Questions to ask yourself