The majority of us feel this way. The exact same way you do. In reality though, we make our own decisions. We need to push ourselves extra hard to get to where someone fluent can be because we have another barrier keeping up from expressing ourselves to the fullest. Doesn't mean we can't push ourselves, it just takes a little more effort on our part. I've had a hard time accepting my stutter and its really doesnt consume my everyday life. There's not a moment in my life where I don't think about my fluency and whether I can blend my communication skills im with others. Naturally Im more reserved and don't wish to be the center of attention but that stems off my disfluency. If I were fluent I would be a rambling man and probably have progressed though life a lot faster than what Im currently at. But its okay. I'll get there eventually. Might not be the same but its me and Im learning to accept it. I strive to work harder than anyone I know and have true and deep passions. What I lack in verbal communication I make up for in acts of compassion. Thats my way and Im okay with it. (Sorry for any errors, I type from the heart most of the time so its fast and don't care to fix grammar on reddit)