I'm right with you brother. I'm 31 and I don't have a social life & have extreme social anxiety because of alot of abuse & public embarrassment all my life. I've contempled suicide multiple times. But what I've learned is it's really a case of get thicker skin or stay the same at the end of the day. I've gone through a few periods in my life where I had "friends" and I was more social but then got soft & hid from life like it's a cycle so to speak. There are drugs out there like SSRI's that help somewhat & help you care less also. Suicide is never the answer. If you keep looking for solutions & pushing yourself who knows when your life can turn around. There are people that cured themselves of stuttering. I just hope that people like us can figure it out before our life passes us by completely.