And besides bro, no matter how you lived your life the past 33 years, all we have is today. Even the people that have lived very well the last 33 years don’t have the past. All they have is today and one good event in your life will help you realize that. All it takes is one good interaction with somebody to change your outlook for that moment. How you felt a year or even today isn’t necessarily what you have to carry forward. Yes, by habit some of it gets carried forward. But those negative thinking patterns can fade slowly if you seek truth and put yourself out there.