I've stuttered since I started talking at 18 months old. I've been clinically depressed since I was 12. In my teenage years it made me contemplate suicide more times than I care to recall. I had what I called the 'Holy Trifecta' of bullying. I was overweight, had SEVERE acne and a horrible stutter. Without fail the focus of the torment was my stutter. It is VERY cliché but it truly does get better. The friends I made in high school helped me. It did not matter to them I couldn't speak at times. Surrounding yourself with people like that helps tremendously. Now, at 43, my family keeps me grounded. There are days that I can't even talk to my kids without fumbling every other word. Days I can't even tell my wife I love her in full sentences. There was a time that it was so bad that I almost lost my family to my problems. Fear, anxiety and depression made me a horrible person. I lashed out at them for no reason. It had to stop. Getting help was the best thing I could have done. I am on medicine that helps me get out of bed, go to the gym, go for a walk or event take a shower more than once a week. Please seek help! Your family doctor can only do so much. Ask for a referral to a psychiatrist that can prescribe medication. DO NOT GIVE UP! Yes, we stutter. Yes, it sucks. Yes, we have good days and bad day but know thay it cannot and does notdefine you as a person. The older you get the more you will experience less resistance to your speech. Feel free to DM me if you need anything. Don't do anything impulsive. If you find yourself getting to that point call someone and just talk. It helps. Keep your head up.