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I know this is old but I am looking for answers myself. I realize it’s probably an anxiety issue but I don’t have any conscious fears of talking to people. Stuttering does however kind of run in my family. My grandpa did rarely but I was told he did. My dad also stuttered once in a blue moon. My sister and I did a little bit when we were younger but nothing I would ever consider a “speech disorder”. We grew up and it naturally happened less and less. I never saw a speech therapist, but in hindsight, maybe I should have. I can’t even remember the last time I stuttered.. other than this job I had a few years ago. I do I consider myself pretty outgoing and confident especially with strangers, but this one experience stuck with me bc it’s never happened before or after that job, it was my only just ever doing phone sales. Anyway I got the job and got trained without a single stutter. It’s not something I regularly think about bc that’s how little it affects my life as an adult- it doesn’t. All is well and I start myself in my own cubicle and I dialed the first number.. they answer “Hello” and I answer back “H-h-h-h-h-hell-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-low-low-low-low.. or worse… I could get off the “H”. People thought I was prank calling them. Every ten or so calls I could only coherently say “Hello” MAYBE ONCE. It was so embarrassing and horrifying. People would get really pissed off when I would call them and just start getting stuck on the first word. I only worked at that job for maybe two weeks and then I had a family emergency and had to stop working to take care of my niece. I call people every day whether it be bills that I have to pay, family, etc. and I never stutter. I actually just spoke to my cousin who I haven’t talked to in maybe a decade, and not one stutter. When I tell people have this problem, they look at me like I’m probably crazy and attention seeking. How can stuttering be a non issue in my life but when I had that job I couldn’t make one phone call? I think maybe it’s because I was calling them, but I call people all the time. And when I make phone calls to Customer Service sometimes I’m nervous and I want something (them to help me) but that doesn’t cause any issues. But this one job with commission making outbound phone calls I physically cannot do?? I feel like the obvious answer is I have some kind of anxiety around making phone calls, but it’s never been a problem before or after that experience.