The struggle is real. In games I can say whatever I want, when I want but in real life I am constantly anxious whether or not I will be able to say something, which most of the time discourages me to actually say what I wanted to say. The worse part is when I notice someone around me is trying to start a conversation with me and the only thing I can say is ‘yes’. However, 4 months ago an old school friend messaged me asking whether I wanted to hangout again, which at first was scary but it gave me a wonderful friendship. For the first time in my life I had a friend to go on vacation with and since then my fluency has improved. So hang in there buddy, It can take a long time but eventually a friendship will develop :)