Same. Sometimes I say something not because it's what I want to say but because it's just easier for me to say. And I 100% agree about other things that you mentioned too. But hey, it'll get better. I'm 25F, I graduated university and have a wonderful job now. It wasn't easy, but I made it. I still stutter every second of every day, but as you get older you learn to see that you're more than your stutter. And I play video games too😂 There's no shame in living some part of your life in the Internet, it's just what the world is now. Also I didn't have a part time job, in my opinion there's nothing wrong about it. Everyone has their own path.