We can't waste our celestial opportunity to be alive for a short period of time. Don't worry about rushing your death - you will die at some point, you'll get there. In the meantime we need to really recognize and appreciate the very very little things. Beyond our stutter, we're alive. We have all of our other senses to use to enjoy the world. We can form relationships, bond with other people, feel joy, etc. There's just too much to do and too little time to do it. Picture the length of all time and space and then realize that you get a small part of it, oppose to nothingness. Imagine not existing for the rest of eternity? I don't want to. Stutters hold us back in a lot of ways, but it's barely a dent in the overall experience of being alive. Gratitude is hard to find sometimes but it feels unbelievably good when you can learn to appreciate something as simple as a breath of air. There's so much strength in us that might not necessarily have shown yet, but I can guarantee it's in you dude. If you feel like you're breaking down in some way, picture the full universe and try and find gratitude for your presence in it. Much love!