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I always knew I stutter. But I've never seen it as a problem. In fact, when I think someone is trying to ignore me or dismiss what I'm trying to say, I get angry and more assertive. "So words take a little longer to come out of my mouth, but that shouldn't make them less important!" Was my mindset. It wasn't until I started seeing a therapist (for an unrelated reason) that she mentioned my stuttering. "You should consult a speech therapist" and that really hit me. I never complained of my stuttering to her, it wasn't a hindrance to my life up to this point, and I had no intention to "fix" it. It simply wasn't something that I saw needed fixing. But she really made me question it. And it added more faults than I see in myself. I don't see this therapist anymore, she's an old lady and I don't think she can relate to my experiences very well haha. So basically, my natural state was to accept my speech. But even "professionals" see it as a problem that shouldn't be happening. Something to work on fixing. This makes us doubt ourselves and instead of moving forward with our lives we always stop to try to fix it. It's a cycle of acceptance and rejection that we do to ourselves.