OMG, my father hated that I stuttered. He was embarrassed of it. When I would stutter, he used to yell so loud “what the hell is the matter with you? Where did I go wrong? Spit it out Gd dammit!” The veins in his head would pop out and it was sent him into a rage. He yelled at me like that from the time I was a little girl till I was in my 40s. When we would be talking to other people in public, and I would stutter he would say “that enough” and put his hand over my mouth. To this day and I am now in my 50s when I stutter I often feel like that helpless child. I know he did not behave. That way to intentionally hurt me, he didn’t know what to do, and he didn’t understand Stuttering. Towards the end of his life he became better at dealing with my stuttering. Sometimes he would imitate me and tell me that nobody would want to be with somebody that talks like I do. It’s quite shocking to think that a parent could talk to their child like that. My dad definitely had anger issues and I forgive him but that had a huge impact on me and it will forever. Absolutely traumatizing. I’m sorry that your father could not handle it either. As hard as it was, we cannot go back and change the past. Just moving forward now and treating others with kindness, empathy and love, because that is what I wanted so badly from him.