Ughhh I'm sorry. I've had these days .... less due to my stutter. More due to my depression. It's great you're supplementing. It can help some people. I take magnesium and a supplement called Stress Care (from the Himalaya brand). Not sure if that's accessible to you. Do you have holy basil accessible as a tea perhaps? I'd look into that. It's easy to grow too. It looks almost like regular basil. Dry it and drink the tea from the leaves. Sorry you had a bad day, but you WILL get the fuck over it. Go do something you love! I know it's hard to stop the thoughts from creeping back in what feels like every 10 minutes. There's a chat based suicide hotline. Not sure if it's available by you, but talking to someone (online) might be a another good way to get it out: [https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/chat/](https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/chat/)