Struggling with stuttering

Struggling with stuttering I hate it when i stutter, ive always stuttered ever since i was a child, im now 15 years old and still struggle with it, i cant socialize or have normal conversations without stuttering and it makes me wanna kill myself. Sometimes i wish i was never born, i hate myself for being this way, sometimes i wanna swallow my tongue and go mute. Ive gone to therapy and done so much but why can i not talk like others, why did god choose me to be this way.