It feels like the quick panic and surprise throws me off to the point where I sometimes need to remember where I was going with this. It's like someone accidentally throwing a ball at you and it surprises you and gives you a startle. It's hard to gather myself sometimes even if I find fluency, I'm left somewhat shaken and have to fall back to confidence or reminding myself there's nothing all that important I need to say anyway and can relax and go back to feeling like I'm just talking with the wind.