Starting to hate everyone I meet

Starting to hate everyone I meet I am 25 almost about to be done with college, but still struggle with speaking. I am at the point where I have gotten used to all the typical reactions from people being uncomfortable with me talking. I just don't force my way into conversations anymore. A lot of people are just not patient with you. I can't blame them for the way they act, but it just creates this ever increasing ditch between me and them. These people can enjoy normal lives and I never will. It makes me hate myself even more, and also am just indifferent towards everyone else in my life but family. Few people realize how hard our lives our.