I understand where you're coming from I have the same issues with events sometimes unless I have something to mellow me out. Unironically though take your own advise and think about the wondering of what you mean to say. Im not attacking you just trying to have you realize wording is everything. Believe me if I could choose to not sound like an idiot I would lol but unfortunately its the hand of cards I was delt. Thankfully iv found ways to some what manage it. But it slips every now and then.