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Here’s my experience: I’ve had 15 job interviews in the last 12 months (Full time Resident Firefighter/EMT trying to make the transition to full time union FF). Very competitive industry, I stutter, which in adulthood has turned into a block, which I attempt to do stall tactics like say Um over and over to gain rhythm to get through it. Let’s just say it doesn’t look like good oratory skills. I began taking propanolol to see if that would help me. It did not. My nerves were certainly dulled, but I became monotone, passionless, and I stuttered more. When I first started I was ranking on hiring lists like 4 out of 72, 5 out of 160, 2 out of 6, etc. after the propanolol it’s been 31st, and 24th. A guy who’s sat on two of my interviews then and now gave me the feedback that my passion didn’t come through the 2nd time. It’s frustrating. Stuttering is so difficult in these contexts. But I mention it at the start, and that my disfluencies are something I’ll be working around and not necessarily an indication that I’m extremely nervous. So I ditched the propanolol, and story tell from a place of passion, have some enthusiasm and if I get caught in an awkward stutter or block during an impassioned speech I laugh it off and keep pushing forward.