Bro, I am in the same ship but the fact is I am a 33M, I am also scared of talking to people and everthing. But please there is hope, if your stutter is a result of your anxiety, then definetly going to a psychiatrist and taking anxiety pills will help. It has helped me a lot. I still stutter but it is managable. I dont feel that bad that I would consider suicide. Also seeking therapy provide ways to cope. You can dm me if you want to know more. Take care