You are not alone. Unfortunately stuttering is a not recognized disability, I sometimes would have had a hand missing instead of this. The only satisfaction I've had was when a guy that in my youth often took fun of my stuttering went to the jail for theft. My suggest for you is to not take care of people but work to improve yourself, your mind. Fight your fear and try to speak in public. I got a great help from talking thiamine, 300 mg once a day, sustained release. Unfortunately I discovered it only one year ago, at age of 43. It starts to give benefits after a couple of week because it has to saturate the levels in the blood. I hope it'll help