I’m M23 still with a pretty noticeable stutter and it’s still taking over my life.

I’m M23 still with a pretty noticeable stutter and it’s still taking over my life. I am a very athletic and in shape (played 2 sports in college and just graduated this May) young guy. I’m plenty smart enough, curious about the world around me, and have a genuine interest in people and connections. Because of my stutter, however, I just find it so hard to succeed and find happiness in this world. I enjoy writing and sharing ideas with people, but the fear of not being able to speak fluently and converse with them just rattles me to my core. I want to get out there and socialize with others and make connections with people, but it’s just so damn crushing to get blocked or stuck in speech and knowing there is nothing you can do about it. And I can feel the people around me feeling uncomfortable, feeling like they don’t want to be there anymore, or worst of all feeling bad for me. I just feel like so much of life and the world is based off of speech and speaking and not being able to do that makes me feel like I’m just at a constant disadvantage in the world. I have been reading self-help books and actually (despite how this rant probably sounds) have improved my mindset significantly, I just know there are some things I can’t do. The metaphor I have recently thought of (though I know this is me exaggerating) it’s like if a person is born with no legs. No matter how hard they try, no matter how much training and practice and positive affirmations they may bring into their life, they physically can not become a track star. Not from lack of effort, talent or any of that, just an innate inability to do.