If you were like me i would look into online dating (that’s what i did and ive been unsuccessful), but I wouldn’t beat yourself up. Yes you stutter but i wouldn’t let it define you. It sounds like to if your stuttering is getting worse it’s the case of the episodes. This happened to be at work recently and i purposely didn’t talk because any little thing becomes sticking to a word like glue I think if you find a career the relationship will come after but you never know - don’t give it you got this