Feelings

Feelings I wish I didn't stutter. Social anxiety and depression suck. I feel alone even when I'm surrounded by people who love me because I feel like I can never love myself. Even when I express how much my stutter has scarred me, it never feels like anyone truly understands. When people praise me I never feel like any of it is true. I just want to find myself in the sea of darkness that I'm drowning in. I just want to figure out what my purpose is. Who am I suppose to be? What can I say to myself to make things okay? I just want the power to say what I want, is that too much to ask..?