I feel like having no commitment to overcome it

I feel like having no commitment to overcome it Here is the paradox. Nowadays, at the age of 24, I'm extremely aware that I have to fix this problem so that I can find a job. I mean, there is no "consious" period in my life that I feel the urgency to solve this problem more than now, but I don't spend enough effort other than reading aloud book to at least get a temporary alleviation. My blocks increased indeed and I'm not doing anything. I think something REALLY BAD should happen so that I can get myself together. Sometimes I find this indifference too interesting.