I get you, I'm only 18, and my mental health, self-esteem, and outlook on life are already fucked to be honest. I'm leaving school forever in the next few days without a job lined up and no ambitions in life, mainly because I'm scared to death of heading out to the real world. I'm just trying my best to hang on and keep surviving in the hope that my situation will improve, which it might not, but life is nothing if you give up hope. The worst part for me is that I'm basically living a lie because I'm a covert stutterer, and I can usually do enough to get by without being noticed. Sometimes, I just hope that I get put into a situation where I block so hard that the secret gets out and I can give up the act because I'm not strong enough to tell anyone (except for my parents who know).