I saw a hypnotist but didn't think it was worth it. I fell asleep and he woke me up. Thought it was pretty goofy. I feel for you. I think we have all been there. It is a very good thing that suicide is off the table. Knowing that, and knowing you're at a very low point in life, the next thought is, what's there to lose now? Stuttering cannot hurt you. It can just embarrass you. But it won't kill you, and you won't kill yourself. You have one life to live. Become the Jesus character of your own life and soak up the embarrassment and pain while pushing toward your goals. You are bigger than the stutter. Bull your way forward in life. It will feel like you're running through a war zone but at the end of every day, you'll realize you're still here, the stutter didn't kill you, and that there is actually nothing to fear. Go to war for the one life you've got. In terms of depression etc. that is not related to stuttering, hard to give much advice not knowing your situation really. Personally, I found sunlight was absolutely integral to my happiness. I had cyclical winter depressions that got quite bad before I tried a sun lamp, and now those are gone. Just living healthier, not drinking etc., is a good idea too. Depends on your situation, not sure if the stutter and depression are the chicken or egg or unrelated to each other.