I hope you can make the right choices and put the drugs down. There's so much you can still do in life, and I made this post because I am intrigued by what living with mental illness and stuttering at the same time is like for people on this subreddit 👍 I love to open my world view a bit. Also, when you say "BPD" do you mean Borderline personality disorder? or Bipolar Disorder?, Do you ever feel unsatisfied with your current life? Or are you truly at peace? How did your doctor come to the conclusion you had 'BPD'?