_When someone mentions depression and suicide, I have to mention r/depression and r/SuicideWatch. You're not alone. Get help. Get medicated. Get better._ ---   >**I mask it quite well with word substitutions** and just not talking where I don't need to >My stutter is always just in my head and **I'm thinking about it all the time** Don't hide anything. You're wasting a terrible amount of resources doing that. _Change_. That's how you avoid feeling like this for the rest of your life.