Do you have a buddy to talk to when things go bad?

Do you have a buddy to talk to when things go bad? Couple of days ago I had a shift with a new partner, I've known her for a while (even started to develop a small crush on her), but when she arrived to the shift she quickly asked what my name is, and it caught my by surprise (my workplace has an excel sheet with the name of each person per shift, so I though she looked at it before coming to work), so I stutter the hack out of me, I'm talking about a 20-30 seconds block. After I finally said it I felt so ashamed out of myself and wanted to disappear, fourteenthly the rest of the shift went fine but the next day I felt the dire need to talk to a pale about what happened, some friends knew that I had developed a small crush on her (btw after what happened I quickly lost any interest of her, knowing it's ain't going to work) but I don't have anyone who would know what I feel (and felt) and that will know how to interpreted it and help me with my feelings. So my question is, do you have someone to talk to about that stuff, and that will help you recover from it? And ofc thanks for listening to my depressing, sad story <3