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expressing myself on blocks I’m already depressed and speech block lowers my self esteem even more. When I look back, all I see are missed opportunities and hiding from the real world. I am 23 now, recently got my undergrad degree. I’m angry because I didn’t get the most out of high school and university. I’m sad because I know my potential, my ambitions, which I couldn’t put into this world (i know i’m still very young but i’m upset about the wasted years). I don’t have social anxiety, it’s my stuttering. I would’ve enjoyed joining class discussions, being active in student clubs, being more passionate about my major… but instead I was almost always passive. and all these form my life in the end. but i don’t want to be that person. i am not that person. the person i’m aspired to be or the version of myself that I know I have in me are not the same with the person I am in real life. and that is depressing af. I’ve tried speech therapy, ergotherapy and therapy. Also, one thing I hate the most is how unaware people are. I mean what are the chances I forgot my own name if I’m 23 and don’t have dementia? I don’t think it’s too much to ask. just consider someone may have a speech impediment, and no they’re not socially awkward. waiting for an extra 2 mins for someone to talk is not the end of the world. I am sorry if it sounded rude but I’m just sick of it.