Hey mate,I just wanted to say to you and others that might be reading that I plan emigrate Scotland some months from now, and Im so motivated I never actually believed ot was possible to be so positive about life. As with everything, first you need to be comfortable with yourself and maybe try to disclose your stutter to random strangers. Especially an older person, u can try to speak to them even if u block at every word and if you don't be ashamed of yourself, no one will make fun of you because our disability makes it very apparent that it's not something we choose. Sorry for the long text, the gist of it is work on yourself, go to the gym and maybe join our discord. The worst that can happen to u in US is being homeless but even then u can get help and u should still to the gym etc. The day u lose hope is the day you die my friend. Get a dog and talk to him/her you'll find life will be easier.