It’s just not fair

It’s just not fair I’ve had enough of this. It’s just isn’t fucking fair that everyone around me is able to go about their lives not constantly anxious they’re going to sound like a complete retard every time they open their mouth. I’ve never met anyone else with even a speech delay. No one knows how it feels and I’m at my breaking point. Self esteem is low and I just have so much anger. Mainly anger from how I did nothing to deserve this constant mental exhaustion and anxiety when I have to speak to people.