i can understand your situation. that was literally me in high school, always running from whichever opportunity I was given to speak somewhere because of my brutal past. i wanted to leave school without any bad experience, until i was told to give a farewell speech infront of school on the very last day. i was shitting myself, since that was the first time I had to speak. i knew that if it went wrong, the embarrassment will be like hell, but at the same time it was one time chance to actually do what I always liked. its not like I hated running away from speaking, i was ALWAYS scared of my stutter. i felt like an extrovert TRAPPED in the body of an introvert, forcing myself to stay quite all the time i practiced like hell for that speech, and to my utter surprise, gave my best every speech without any fumble/block. ik for everyone, it was just another speech, but for me it was the biggest victory. i was finally confident, even if it was on the last day my suggestion to OP is not run away from stuttering. we have to accept it one day, then why not do it today itself? but i understand it's wrong to say that just because it worked for me, but trust me, in the end you will feel a huge relief of your chest. just a one step forward in this game called life