You poor thing. There is a videos about a young man who is in your situation who participated in a program in the UK. There are also several follow-up videos of his continued progress. YouTube: Real Story Stammer School. Let me know what you think I’m CHAT. I will track down the other videos about him. The program, a breath control technique, is now available online. Dr. McGuire on YouTube. Maybe in stuttering YouTube. There’s also ANOTHER Dr. Gerald Maguire( spelled differently) who uses medication to treat stuttering. There is a new Facebook group: Treatment for Stuttering Support Group that is for all stutterers but features the medication-mediated therapy of Dr.Gerald Maguire. Regards, Sue