It sure is difficult. As far as feeling like shit, I absolutely know what you mean...trust me. It's difficult to gauge when (it was really a transition over time), but I stopped feeling like shit about Me when I stuttered. I would feel shitty about the other person who gave my stuttering a bad or shameful reaction. As of now, I genuinely feel pity for that person...They are the one with the perception problem. I have a physical disability and they look down on me for it....Who is the real piece of shit in that situation?