You should join our stuttering community - there's a link on my profile and its free. It's for professionals who stutter and everything you're talking about, we discuss and fully empathize. The only way around is accepting your stutter, trust me it's hard, but it's really the only choice you have. That being said, there are multiple ways for you to start accepting your stutter. One is joining our community and meeting more people who stutter who are successful - this will show you that anything is possible despite having a stutter. Next, it's building more positive interactions while speaking. Your brain will slowly start retraining itself to normalize stuttering and reduce anxiety if you keep doing these things. This all starts with understanding you need to accept your stutter and do everything you can do to facilitate that. It's no easy process, but I think joining a community like ours would be helpful for you. I was a student just a few years ago and deeply understand where you're coming from.