yes, i really do hope that people can understand what it feels like in these situations. i sometimes feel like i’m ‘one step behind’ anyone else, when others can express their ideas with total fluency. i think before i speak, so i have an idea of what i will speak later on, but what actually comes out from my mouth is a pile of crap which becomes a laughing stock to others. i can see the evil grins from my classmates when they hear me stutter, even taunts such as deliberately replicating my blocks, such as errrrrrr and ssssssss etc. i become extremely depressed, self esteem sinks, and i will sulk and cry in a corner when nobody is around. i’m more of an introverted guy, so i tend not to hang out with people all the time, love being alone in times, and i don’t really expose my feelings to others unless necessary, which explains all that crying. it’s really sad :( sometimes i even think that if i have been brought up the wrong way. i sometimes do contemplate sth like ‘did i learn how to speak the right way’ etc. i know it’s not my fault and i should not think about it, but it’s a feeling and it might be hard not to think about it :(