I finally ordered Starbucks after avoiding it for 2 years

I finally ordered Starbucks after avoiding it for 2 years I’ve had a slight stutter my entire life but when the pandemic started and we had to wear masks I developed a horrible stutter of my own NAME. I could say my order at Starbucks perfectly but once asked for my name, horrible, embarrassing stutter came out. I didn’t step foot in this one particular Starbucks for 2 years because I was afraid I would have to face this one barista again and relive the humiliating feeling. For the past two years I’ve decided where to eat based on whether I would have to give my name or not. It was depressing. So many times I walked by places that I wanted to get a food or drink from but couldn’t because I was so anxious. But yesterday, I decided enough is enough. I had to figure out a way. I can’t believe I didn’t think of this sooner.....I was so focused on beating myself up for my stutter that I didn’t realize there was an easy solution. ABBREVIATE MY NAME! My name isn’t the type to have an abbreviated nickname, but fuck it, now it is. I ordered my drink IN THE STORE, and said my abbreviated name perfectly. It starts the exact same as my normal name. I have no clue why I stutter my full name. Actually, maybe because it requires more air in my lungs and the fucking masks feels Like a suffocating muzzle. I felt like I just unlocked a super power. I felt so liberated. And today I went to Starbucks and did it AGAIN. I’ve learned that baristas don’t give a shit what your name is. I was taking it so seriously and beating myself up everyday. Hopefully eventually I’ll be able to finish saying the other half of my name. And be able to introduce myself (sigh). Baby steps. Thank you for reading.