Thanks for your story, it definitely helps! Out of curiosity, is there any chance that you've been diagnosed ADHD and/or Autism? I was diagnosed with both in my late 20s. Since then I know that at least the stutter is rooted from that (and also the anxiety I developed over childhood due to neurodivergencies), I started to accept this stutter and know that it won't disappear nor I can't fake it till I make it like other people.