Wish I had fixed my stuttering way before

Wish I had fixed my stuttering way before My stuttering was the main cause of my anxiety growing up as far as I can remember. I pushed it off while trying my best to mask it. The stress all culminated during a very stressful week in university where I had heavy weightage test + presentation the same week. I also fell sick and took self medicated with extra meds at home which was of a heavier dosage. All these stress led to my first ever panic attack that has triggered so much of bs for me. I feel like I have lost my spark and don’t know if I can rise up. Nowadays, I don’t even get anxiety for speaking but rather whether I will have another panic attack. Hate this shit man