I’m sorry you’re going through this and relate to you so much. It makes you feel so much shame and humiliation and it’s one of the hardest things to deal with. I would sell my soul to the devil to have the ability to speak like a normal person. Keep on going my friend try your best to cope with it. Every day I work trying to tell customers their totals I make a complete fool out of myself. It’s hard but we just have to learn to live with it. If there’s one thing that’s helped me it’s knowing I’m not alone and so many people in this sub can understand.