Content
Well, growing up stuttering, I always chose to hide it. I wouldn’t raise my hand in class. I always chose not to talk over talking and stuttering. Consequently, I actually participated very little in classes, despite getting excellent grades. I would go as far as to ask every teacher to not call on me in class in order to avoid embarrassment. That worked well throughout high school, except for 12th grade speech class which was mandatory to graduate, where I literally BOMBED every speech, every week. That one class made me realize unconditionally how badly I really stuttered when speaking in front of groups of people. Fortunately, no one ever teased or bullied me, and it was my last year at high school so the damage was minimal. Given my personality, I imagine that I would have been completely stressed and uncomfortable at medical school all day long. And quite likely, my stutter would have gotten much worse. My technique for handling my stutter was avoidance, and I don’t think that that would have been practical given the teaching method at medical school. So, in the end, I chose to study Computer Science and Japanese. Yes, the Japanese was certainly an unexpected choice, but I happened to do a short foreign exchange there after graduating from high school and fell in love with it. Actually, the thing I really liked about Japan, not surprisingly, was that Japanese people would give you the time to try and speak slowly because there was zero expectation from them that you could say anything whatsoever. For the first time in my life, I actually felt like I could speak to strangers without being embarrassed!