Thank you for sharing, and im glad that you had a breakthrough moment in which it strengthened your religous beliefs and found some needed answers. I grew up christian but now am pretty much agnostic. So here’s my take. It’s very simple for me, actually. Some people are born with serious genetic disorders; some dont even make it to full term; some are born tall, short, good-looking, ugly, athletic, clumsy, etc. its just random. So I was born with a stutter, which admittedly is a very frustrating and sometimes even debilitating lifelong condition that i think about the moment im awake until i go to sleep. I think i even stutter in my dreams, lol. It took some therapy and now in my 40s, im mostly ok with it. I have to deal with it everyday, and it really sucks, but i dont question “why me” anymore. Everybody struggles in life in their own ways. I dont hold any supernatural being responsible or answerable to mine. Because realistically, who am i but a tiny speck of sand in the universe, like the billions before me and those after. My problems are my own; and i alone control my destiny. But thanks for sharing, man. It does me no good to know that some dead jewish guy from a long time ago loves me, but i can say honestly that i love you, bro. Only someone who stutters know what i go through, so even though we dont know each other, i feel like you already know an intimate part of me that none of my closest family can truly understand. Hang in there, bro. Much love.