You do realize that all the suffering and pain you were in was your own doing correct? It wasn't the lady, it wasn't your friends or lack of friends in that moment. It was your absolute own doing. You are in control of how you see your stutter. You are in control if it fuels you are drags you down. It's awesome to vent, but then also lead up with what you're going to do now.. what are you going to do now?