Ineteresting write up man, sorry to hear about everything that happened in your past... Cool that you enjoy music and guitar man. What kind of music do you like? I'm a huge fan of Rock, Blues, etc. Dire Straits, Chris Rea, The War on Drugs, Sons of the East, list goes onn and on. I've been trying to learn guitar, I have a les paul electric guitar and a blackstar amp... I know, good equipment and all the fkn time in the world and I cant find myself to learn, I'm pretty lazy too lol... Anyways, it seems like you are improving? Which is really good man :). I have a pretty bad stutter too, it sucks because while my college classes \*Im 20\* are online, seems like the professor always picks on me and while others think my camera is lagging, it's me stuttering. But I've learn to appreciate the better things I've been blessed with in life. I never worked in the past really, just did small jobs to make some $ here and there, but officially put aside my "fear" to work and applied and I realized in life, we fall so we can rise back stronger... ​ anyways, enough about me LOL, just wanted to say you're not alone in this everyday fighting journey man. And I read your whole post, and I'm proud of you for making change. 26 aint old at all man, as Gary Vee would say " you have so much fucking time bro!" ok sorry... but, keep on keeping on man, we're all here for you, make those friends, live your life, dont let your stuttering get in the way, embrace it, make it your bitch... blessings :)